It’s 3 o’clock in the morning here in Michigan. I have been battling anxiety and stress for the past couple days leaving me nauseous, exhausted, and mentally stressed out. I do work full time and attend class after work. I took a walk down Walled Lake today. Perfect timing to catch the sunset and enjoy God’s presence. As I was looking up at God’s beautiful art I couldn’t help but think about how pointless my worry was. I could be battling worse things right now like cancer or any other health related issue like my ovarian cysts and frequent migraines. At least I’m breathing fresh air. At least I’m completely able to walk along the park on my own. I can admit that I have a lot on my plate but I wouldn’t be doing it if I knew God couldn’t help me through it. I’m an overcomer. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
I will continue this battle between the desires of my flesh and the desires of the Lord. God, I need you. My soul cries out to you in desperate need of peace and love. How is it that a Christian can be so full of the spirit and within 2 days be completely washed out? Lord, I long the day until I see your face. I’ll rejoice and be happy until then. What is the point of being upset right now? I have a long road ahead but I do know my future will be bright because you’re in it.
Lift up my christian friends today, Lord. Even my friends who may not know you yet. Bring glory to your name, my Alpha and Omega!
I would not be here if it weren’t for you, Jesus. I love you.